Kellan Lutz and Brittany Gonzales.Photo: David Livingston/Getty Images
Three days aftersharing the heartbreaking newsthat their daughter on the way had died, Brittany, 31, thanked everyone who had supported the couple and shared their own stories.
Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.
Reflecting on her emotional state, Brittany explained that her feelings “are slightly all over the place” at the moment, but that “is to be expected.”
“Some moments I feel so full of peace and hope and expectancy. And other moments, simply put, it all just hurts like hell,” she wrote. “I think it is important to try to always operate from a place of positivity, but that doesn’t mean you don’tacknowledge the other side too. We are human after all. We all hurt, bleed, cry. Feeling the negative emotions doesn’t make you negative.”
RELATED VIDEO: James Van Der Beek Speaks Out About Wife Kimberly’s Miscarriage: “We’re Hanging in There”
However, there are also reasons for Brittany to feel hopeful.
“I’m still here!!! I’m writing this right now and feel humbled,” she said, going on to praise Lutz, 34, and their loved ones, “who have poured so much back to me that I feel full.”
“Even though this is so heavy, I have an unexplainable hope and excitement for the future,” she added. “I’m not readyfor another pregnancy right now(not sure when I will be honestly), but I’m excited to heal and move forward and explore this new version of myself.”
As Lutz shared their tragic news last week, he praised his wife’s strength, calling her “my wonder woman.”
“It’s beena crazy rollercoaster of a weekwith a lot of emotions,” the formerTwilightstar wrote. “Taking heartbrokenness to a whole new level, but grateful for these past 6 months and the journey itself. In life we might not get the answers to all of our questions but we will always remain faithful!”
“I love you@brittanylynnlutz. Thank you for all your love, respect in this private time, understanding of this situation, and utmost support. Just know we love you all and appreciate you all and we process all differently,” he added.
source: people.com
